This morning in church, we sang the hymn "Because He Lives." I know the chorus by heart:
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow
Because He lives, all fear is gone
Because I know He holds the future
And life is worth the living just because He lives
But the second verse was a lightening bolt:
How sweet to hold a newborn baby
And feel the pride and joy he gives
But greater still the calm assurance
This child can face uncertain days because He lives
I said that I don't know what I want to happen in this case. That "it's too early to tell."
But singing those lines this morning....?
Right now, as the case stands at this moment, I would not "face tomorrow" with "calm assurance" if M were to be ordered home at court later this month.
And as much as I would like to believe that's not possible, I'm far too aware that this is a broken system that does not always function in the best interests of the child. (Right, Cherub Mama?)
My mom is a woman of deep faith. She loves her hymns. When a good one is sung at church, you'll hear her singing it all day long. We call them "Mom's songs".
ReplyDeleteBecause He Lives is one of my "Mom's songs". I read this whole post with her voice in the background.
And yeah - I totally get where you're coming from. We certainly can't trust The System!!!! But we can trust God. Hang in there. This isn't for the faint of heart!